Thy Will Be Done
THY WILL BE DONE
by Hazel Angwani
Hazel is a Filipina Columban lay mission assigned to Pakistan.
I can still remember that feeling when I first applied to join the Columban Lay Missionaries. I was not certain of anything but I definitely pushed myself for it. I was arguing with myself whether or not I should join but I found myself saying, “Well, nothing’s going to happen if I do not even try.” It was at that moment that I took a leap of faith. When the orientation program started, I was not really expecting much from it. I was telling myself the whole time, “Let us see how the pages will turn” and just went with the flow of the program.
Initially, I had a hard time adjusting to my new environment but nonetheless, I decided to confront my fears and inhibitions. Day by day, I got to know myself even more and became aware of my own strengths and weaknesses. Knowing these things helped me focus on building and molding myself again. It is hard to acknowledge and accept yourself for who you truly are but as I learned to let go of my ego and pride, it was very liberating. I became free, free to be me, free to be a better version of myself. With that discovery also came the challenge of how to balance one’s own self with that of adapting to other people. But I found out later on that it pays more to just be yourself.